I think that I am just ill with life.

This is relatively old news, but it's still my favorite drawing I did for the Lorem Ipsum's Water Science zine.

Not going to navigate by someone else's map.

Tant pis pour toi, j'ai fait tout que je pourrais.

When I say yes it's just a manner of speaking.

Did I forget?

Dear Everyone Stupid,
Please stop it now.
Yours Truly,
Melissa

I've got some new lists going. Here are a few of them.

Things That Are Funny:
1) Face Band-Aids
2) Razor scooters
3) When people concentrate really hard and stick their tongue out but they don't realize it.

Places in Order:
1) Brains
2) Deserts
3) Arms

Things in Order of Favorites:
1) Useful
2) Soft
3) First
4) Dirty
5) Ugly

Most lists are short these days, except I made a list of everyone I've ever slept in the same bed with in my entire life in chronological order and it's approaching 100. The other long list is a list of collections to start including things like every dish you ever threw away instead of washing (probably all Tupperware), every time you ever left the stove burner on and your house didn't burn down, and every time you said someone's name actually yelled it but really it was just someone you thought looked like someone you know.

Been pretty on edge lately, I think because I thought that after this week I could lay low for awhile but it turned out to be a lie. Busy as ever. It's too bad that the 4th dimension is actually mood and not time because my mood is grumpypants, and it's making me headachey.

Running from bears.

Thankless existence

When I was little I used to start every journal entry with "Today was the best day ever! We had chicken fingers for dinner!"

Except that my handwriting was sloppy and I don't think I knew how to spell chicken yet.






I'm working on a new poem.

I'm starting to realize the difference between

"I enjoy spending time with you."

and

"I look forward to spending time with you."

Things I haven't thought about in a long time, but thought about today:

1) Pool, garden, bathroom with a door to the outside, second kitchen, mirror wall, nail polish, BomberMan, silver purse, weird tree, Dottie and Ollie, gummi bears

Which led to:

2) Pantry

Backtrack:

3) Anxiety, big fight, polka dots, beer cans that looked like soda cans, styrofoam, Why?, new hat, long walk, sunburn, hide and seek, water jug, repeat repeat repeat

And a general feeling of:

4) That one time when I believed you but really you were just a good liar. Goddamn.

You Know Me

I give up.

Dear Tempe,
Please stop pretending that you're Disneyland.
Sincerely,
Melissa

Dear Algebra,
Thanks for being there when I needed you most.
Love,
Melissa



You're often wrong but I forgive you.

I need to be more careful what I wish for.